I was in the bathroom thinking about how happy I am and how I wanted to just share it with everyone. I remembered how I would always post my happy events on this things. Why I like to do that is beyond me but I really enjoy going back and reading them later. They always make me smile. So here we go.
I was thinking about how funny is was that Ben and I drove to AZ in January of 2004 and drove from AZ in November of 2006. It was as if those two years in between never existed. We erased them completely. He is the single most perfect thing in my life. It is almost nauseating to think how perfect we are together. It's not something I think about often because everything just comes so naturally with us. I mean really, it feels like we've always been married. I know no other life. And he's just perfect. I don't tell him that of course, I whine and throw tantrums and then he tells me to shut up but does everything I want anyway. I push his buttons until I get him really mad and then come baby him for an hour. It's disgustingly adorable to say the least. lol
We have a cute apartment that I'm dying to show my Mom. All of our furniture is from Ikea so I absolutely love it. Except for the TV stand, which he made and I think is amazing. We both work like two minutes away from where we live. We make more than we spend and are saving for the future. It is just a wonderful life. We complain about stupid things of course because there is always something to grip about like the stupid humidity or my boss, but the truth is we are perfectly happy. It is by far the most extraordinary feeling I have ever felt. I finally figured it out. You are happy when you don't have think about being happy, you don't think about it ever, until one day, you look in the mirror and think, wow, life is good. I am so blessed.
- Current Mood:finally not nauseus!
Take me with you.
- Current Mood: anxious
Every song reminds me of someone new, someone old. I am moving forward but I am not moving on. I miss you and I miss the past but the future looks o so new and fun and good. I reach out for it and it is pushed back. I will not chase it like I chased you. I am letting go of the past and I am letting go of what may be in the future. You no longer own the smallest part of me, you are the smallest part of me. Hiden but not in precious way, in a very shameful way.
Do not forget, I'm a loner dottie, a rebel.They all knew it but it is easier to act surprised. I will explain it to you when it makes no difference, you'll apologize and I will pretend that it is all okay, but know now, it is not okay. I am not fun, I am not FUN. Hear it in your heart, count the ducks and enjoy the sky.
- Current Mood: tired
- Current Mood: scared
It has truly been a spectacular year. In comparison to last year is it even better than spectacular. Well I knew it would be and here we are in the middle of it. Although it hardly feels like the middle but more like the end. The holidays always fly by us and I wouldn't have it any other way. Move along like Raych's hottie says. I'm addicted to watching music videos. Good ones not lame one that are on all the time like that stupid Christina Aguilera one. If I have to watch that one more time I will hunt her down and slap her. However I don't see why I would have to watch that considering I have the remote control so I am not anticipating that any time soon. The real reason I was updating was to upload pictures of the dresses Raych and I tried on so that Luisa could see them and maybe pick one she would wear but I have now decided against this. It would ruin the surprise. Very well then, how about an update. For those of you that don't know or maybe even for me when I look back at these entries, I have recently moved to Arizona. I would post my new address but the last time I did that I had so many care packages it was absurd and some of them were questionable as far as decency so I won't be taking that bullet so if you wish to have simply let me know. So I'm in AZ 'cause I got a job offer and I decided to take it. That is all. O and yes I still plan on pursuing school. Probably over the internet at UTEP until I can go to school here without having to pay out of state tuition. School is expensive enough! I think I covered most of the question I get asked daily. Not that I'm doing this so that will stop becausen it won't but it's all good. I recently got an Xterra. Ben you can ride with me any day! lol I love it even though I'm not too fond of the color. I figure it will grow on me. And last and probably least, I am in love with Justin Pierre, we are engaged and the wedding is next spring. See you there.
- Current Mood: mellow
- Current Mood: pensive
- Current Mood: seperated
He said he was sorry in a very unapologetic way. Earth to idiocy I don't believe you. You can make me laugh but you can't make me smile. Walls are built high and you're offense is weaker than your will. With options crawling out your rim you're more cornered than an imprisoned man. I have no problem with your lies just your face.
Quote: "We accept the love we believe we deserve"
From: The Perks Of Being A Wallflower Thanks for the book Irene, I just finished the first chapter. It's a bit odd but I like it.
- Current Mood: sore
Or is he just a liar, with nothing to lie about?
- Current Mood: busy